Today’s Intention: I am prosperity and divine wealth.
Dear Diary and Friends,
I let myself get exhausted the past couple of days and I had sketchy internet so I missed a couple days of my blog.
I was really struggling last night being exhausted and not in a place of accepting what is. Here is a text I sent a friend this morning telling her about what I learned through my self inflicted misery. It starts out with the night before with me complaining.
” I can’t stand it here at Trace’s. I was so exhausted when I arrived last night, him and Tayson didn’t go to bed until after 1am. I was so miserable. Then I was going to leave today but with such little sleep on top of exhaustion there was no way I could drive on the muddy roads to get out of here.
Then they were still going tonight so Angel and I are sleeping in the back of his dirty jeep. I am leaving at first light. I got to get the hell out of here. I feel like I’m losing it.”
Then in the morning I sent this message:
” Thank you!! I feel much better after getting good sleep in the jeep. I read this when I woke up in the middle of the night.”
” I appreciate your encouragement and prayers. They work! ”
Later in the morning I wrote this:
” I appreciate you. I feel good. I clearly see what I was meant to see from my experience at Trace’s. I did not meditate or set an intention before arriving there. Then I expected Trace to provide what he is not able to. I ignored my intuition to leave and give myself the quiet and rest I needed. I did not allow being exhausted to be ok. I fought it. Then I blamed being exhausted on Trace. It was good practice on acceptance.”
Today I drove 13 hours with stops from Denver to Yukon, OK. The drive was fun, I listened to “Wishes Fulfilled” by Wayne Dyer. Angel did really good. In Yukon we are staying with Trace’s mom, Uncle and grandma. Angel’s grandma and great grandma. I was really happy to meet them and have Angel meet them. I sat outside with Trace’s mom Carolyn for a while and talked while Angel played. Then we went to bed. I was so grateful to have a nice quiet room to sleep in.
I appreciate Trace.
I appreciate meeting wonderful new relatives and people.
I appreciate long meditative drives.
I appreciate a reliable vehicle.
I appreciate apples.
I appreciate exhaustion.
I appreciate growth.
Thank you for being a part of our lives.
I appreciate you!