Fruitluck!

Dear Diary and Friends,

I woke up at 4:30am. I did an hour of meditation and read. I officially got up at 6:30am. Angel was still asleep. I took a hot and then cold shower. It felt really nice. I realized my period had started and I was very happy about that. I love my moon time, I always feel so peaceful and grounded. When I got out of the shower, I put on coconut oil with lavender and got dressed. I made 2 64oz. banana strawberry smoothies and applesauce with spinach and dried mulberries on top. Then I read and sipped at one of my smoothies until Angel woke up. Angel took a bath in the kitchen sink and ate a banana.

We left early to go to the potluck so I could stop by the Asian market on the way and buy a durian. The market had lots of yummy things today. I bought longons, rambutan, strawberry papaya, passion fruit, young coconut and a durian. I felt like I had hit the jackpot. Angel and I munched on the longons on the way to the fruitluck. They were so sweet and yummy. We ate almost all of them before we got there. Lol.

The fruitluck was great fun as always. A visiting guest brought sprouted coconut which was a real treat! 

The conversations were great and the kids had fun playing at the park. I ate some sprouted coconut, applesauce, longons and rambutan.

After the fruitluck I went to George’s to work. I ate the rest of the applesauce shortly after I arrived. George sent me on an errand in downtown Austin. I drove back down there and had to parallel park. I was having trouble getting the right angle which was bizarre to me because I used to easily parallel park. A homeless man stepped out and helped direct me. I finally got parked and when I got out I realized that it was a very small space and I barely fit, so I think I did good getting in there at all. Lol. I thanked the man and he asked if I could help him out at all. I didn’t have money so I offered him fruit and surprisingly he was really happy with that. I gave him 3 apples and he said that was plenty. Yay for giving fruit!

When I got back to George’s, they sent me on more errands. By the time I was finished it was time to go. Angel fell asleep on the drive home and I was feeling pretty tired by the time I arrived home. I put away all the fruit and went to bed.

I appreciate periods.

I appreciate friends.

I appreciate connection.

I appreciate my truck.

I appreciate tropical fruit.

I appreciate music.

I appreciate good books.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate the color green.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Abundantly yours,

Victoria

Appreciations

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am taking a day off from my blog and only writing my appreciations.

I appreciate headaches.

I appreciate cleaning.

I appreciate lovely drives.

I appreciate honey mangos.

I appreciate fun phone conversations.

I appreciate music.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate the color brown.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Lovingly yours,

Victoria

Fire Ants and an Afternoon Walk

Dear Diary and Friends,

I had a great day off. I decided in the early afternoon to move a pile of plywood to another spot. Things were going well, I was enjoying the workout and the weather was perfect. My roommate Charlie joined in and helped. Then we came across the fire ants that were nesting in the plywood pile. Oh my! There were thousands of them and they were mad. In order to ever move the rest of the plywood I was going to have to deal with them, so I decided to do what I could to break up their nest and hope they move on. I  got a few bites, like about 20 or 30..lol. I managed to get all the plywood separated. Then I remembered that orange oil works to get rid of them. So I went inside and made a mixture of orange oil, dish soap, white vinegar and water. I sprayed it all over my hands and feet, then I went back into the war zone. The spray worked brilliantly. They did not try to swarm me this time and I was able to spray down all the boards with their eggs on them. Hopefully tomorrow they will have all moved on and I can finish my project.

The rest of the afternoon I took a lovely lavender oil bath, did laundry and moved my plants around that are in pots out front to make them look better. I also planted celery that I got growing from a bunch of celery I bought a few weeks ago. I enjoyed playing in the dirt. It has been a while. I was excited to see that the pineapple top I had planted from a pineapple I bought is thriving. Yay!! Then Angel and I went on an afternoon walk. While we were walking I got a call about doing a cat sitting job next week. I’m excited about that!! It was an awesome walk. We talked to a couple of people, threw pebbles in some water for a while and saw some goats. Angel loved seeing the goats.

We are in bed early and Angel is already asleep. I am going to miss community choir practice but that’s ok. I will read a little and go to sleep. I love going to sleep early. I’m an old lady like that. Lol

I appreciate early bedtimes.

I appreciate great jokes.

I appreciate banana raspberry nice cream.

I appreciate clean laundry.

I appreciate celery.

I appreciate lovely weather.

I appreciate fire ants for keeping me on my toes.

I appreciate Charlie helping move the plywood.

I appreciate the color purple.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Snuggly yours,

Victoria

Life Is Full Of Poop and Pee

Dear Diary and Friends,

I woke up this morning to cat poop in the living room. Somehow the outside cat MaryBell was in the house.  I was quite cranky about waking up to that. I like my house clean with no yuckies. Anyway, I got over it mid morning until I went to lay on the day bed to read and almost laid on hidden cat poop behind a pillow. I decided to be grateful that I didn’t lay in it because that would have been way nastier than just finding it. I cleaned it up and washed the blanket twice. I might run it through another cycle in the morning just because.

At George’s their dog Baby pee’d on his girlfriend Peggy’s bed. I helped clean that up. I had to just laugh. Then Angel soaked through her diaper and got pee on George and his recliner. I helped clean that up. Some days are like that, especially when you have kids and pets. Pretty soon you just accept that there is going to be poop and pee to clean up and enjoy making things clean again.

I did get a nap in today before working for George but no walk. Tomorrow is my day off so I plan on walking a lot. I bagged up some finished raw mini pizza pies. They turned out really good. I changed the recipe a little and it was a very yummy change that made them taste even better. The ingredients and prices can be found here: http://wp.me/P9fj3G-1zz

I appreciate cleaning.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate salad.

I appreciate free produce.

I appreciate Charlie filling up the hole in the driveway and finishing free gravel to do it with.

I appreciate donkeys.

I appreciate my truck.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Faithfully yours,

Victoria

I Love Preparing Food For Others To Enjoy

Dear Diary and Friends,

I just finished bagging up a large on line dehydrated snack order. It is such a joy to make good quality food for people. I love love love the food as I prepare it and I love love love it when I get it out of the dehydrator and bag it up. I love the smells, the colors and the textures. I even love cleaning up, lovingly washing the dehydrator trays…making them sparkly clean, wiping out the dehydrators. I am grateful to experience all of that in my life. I am grateful to make food for others to enjoy.

I had a really fun evening at my friend Pastor Pam’s tonight. She shared her adventures that she had on her pilgrimage to Israel and we had a lovely dinner of soup and salad. It was a delightful walk home, warm and the stars were shinning bright. Angel Baby fell asleep in the wagon. The walk to pastor Pam’s was also delightful. Angel Baby pushes her baby stroller alongside the wagon. First we went to the park. I practiced hand stands and I went across the monkey bars and back. Angel spent most of her time there being pushed in the swing until my arms were done pushing. Then we finished walking to Pam’s going Angel’s pace. We watched ants for a while. We watched a really long train go by. We stood and did nothing a few times and we practiced learning walking safety skills.

It was a perfect day.

I appreciate walks.

I appreciate parks.

I appreciate friends.

I appreciate naps.

I appreciate books.

I appreciate making food for others.

I appreciate gaining weight.

I appreciate salad.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Delightfully yours,

Victoria

Angel Baby Walking To Church, Thoughts and Bursts of Anger.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I had a great morning. I walked to church with Angel Baby. Instead of pulling her in the wagon, we left 2 hours early and she walked pulling her little toy dog along. It took us an hour and a half to walk 1/2 a mile to church but it was a lot of fun and I so enjoy living life at a slow pace. I posted a video of our walk below.

At 2pm I headed to George’s for work. I usually don’t work on Sunday but his girlfriend is out of town and they asked me to work. On the drive there I was so tired I couldn’t keep my eyes open. So I pulled over and took a 20 minute nap while Angel watched “Sarah & Duck” on Netflix. I love that show. My friend Meghan told me about it and it is a great kids show. When I woke up I felt much better. I was late for work but George didn’t care and I knew he wouldn’t. I told him about being so tired and he was glad I pulled over and napped. Plus he had me run errands doing more driving and that nap totally made me more competent to work. I stayed a half hour late to make up the late time.

Ive been listening to Adyashanti and Rupert Spira a lot on YouTube. I am soaking it all in. Once again my perceptions and beliefs are being turn on their heads. I keep shedding more and more beliefs and “I need to be rights”. Then I’ve been thinking about thoughts and where they go when I’m not thinking them and how they magically pop up when I need them or even when I don’t need them. Then they magically go away…but where do they go????? Are they really MY thoughts or are they part of awareness which is all of us? Awareness doesn’t start or end and are thoughts awareness or something else because thoughts start and end. Do we think thoughts after we leave our physical bodies or are we just aware? Anyway…does any of this matter? Probably not.

Ive had bursts of anger towards Angel lately. I had my prayer warrior friend pray about it for me. Angel will be whining or not cooperating and I will just snap. Anger will flood over me and I will catch myself yelling at her. Then when it’s over, I will feel almost stunned, like, what the heck just happened. Then I will be back to feeling like my peaceful self. So today Angel was whining and I felt the instant anger wash over me. Instead of yelling, I stopped and felt the anger. It was intense and big. It actually felt good and I enjoyed the feeling, then it was gone in a flash. I thought, “hmmm, how interesting” and then calmly addressed Angel. What a beautiful experience.

I appreciate anger.

I appreciate slow paced walks.

I appreciate a phone call from a friend.

I appreciate church.

I appreciate naps.

I appreciate breath.

I appreciate papaya.

I appreciate the color red.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate donation gifts.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Beautifully yours,

Victoria

Saturday Fruitluck And Winter Ramblings

Dear Diary and Friends,

Today was our weekly fruitluck. I had an incredible time. We met at a wandering vegan market. There were a few people there that hadn’t been in a while. I loved getting reaquinted with them. I loved the energy and the conversations abd the weather and everything. It was a lovely experience.

I am so glad it’s warm again. Those 3 days of grey, cold winter we had were challenging. I can handle 2 days but on the 3rd day my happy goes away. All those years of living through Idaho winters with inversions and weeks without seeing in the sun. The winter before I moved to Texas it didn’t get above 25 degrees all of January and not a peek of sunlight due to an inversion. I tried happy lights and supplanting vitamin d and tanning booths to bring back my happy. Nothing worked except going south in the winter. I understand that some people love cold, grey weather and it works for them. For myself I thrive with sunlight and warmth. I’m so grateful to have faced my fear of leaving Idaho. I was 2 months pregnant, recently divorced and still decided to move south. You go girl!! Lol. I love Texas.

I’m rambling on in my journal writing tonight. Lol.

I appreciate warm weather.

I appreciate people.

I appreciate flowers.

I appreciate strawberries.

I appreciate lavender oil.

I appreciate leaves.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Warmly yours,

Victoria

I Want a Break and Some Sunshine

Dear Diary and Friends,

I’m so confused right now. All these new ideas on truly being in the now and meditation. Then giving up my beliefs…all my beliefs. I feel like I’m nothing and I was ok with that yesterday but today I want to be something. My ego is freaking out. I want a break from life but I know I will follow. I want a break from myself. I want a break from being or not being. I want a break from Angel Baby and I love Angel Baby but the 2 year old whining is screeching on my nerves. Then I know it’s not her, it’s me allowing it to be an issue…then I started screeching on my last nerve with my thoughts constantly yammering about what I am and am not allowing. Please just stop!!

Ok, so that about sums up where I am at. I’ve gone 3 days without the sun. That is rare in Texas, that’s why I love it here. The sun will help.

I appreciate sleeping Angel Baby.

I appreciate cold cloudy days.

I appreciate apples and mulberries.

I appreciate days off.

I appreciate my thoughts yammering all the time.

I appreciate warm heaters.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate breath.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Grumpily yours,

Victoria

Day off

Today’s Intentional Transformation: The moment does not have a beginning or end; no past or future. It is always available now.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am taking another day off from my blog. It was a cold rainy day today. I walked 2 hours in the rain this morning and it was absolutely lovely. I feel incredibly blessed to be able to walk so much. Angel took a 4 hour nap which I don’t think she has ever done before. I wonder if she will ever go to bed tonight. Lol.

My mom called today and she might come visit at the beginning of December. I would enjoy that.

My 17 year old daughter usually does not want me to post pictures of her but I got permission to post today’s. She is a wonderful young woman and I love her dearly. I’m grateful to be her momma.

I appreciate long walks.

I appreciate apples.

I appreciate rain.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate story time at the library.

I appreciate gifts.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Gratefully yours,

Victoria

Angel Baby Meets a Hedgehog

Today’s Intentional Transformation: whatever is happening in the moment is reality. Everything else is thoughts and thoughts are not real.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am hope late from game night tonight, where Angel got to see a hedgehog for the first time. She was a little bit leery of it. Lol.

I will not be writing a blog. There is a fun video of Angel dancing below.

I appreciate game night.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate dancing.

I appreciate my truck.

I appreciate fresh oj.

I appreciate the color blue.

I appreciate sisters bonding.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Sleepily yours,

Victoria