Perfect Timing for my Truck to Break Down

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be willing to be vulnerable.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am going to start writing stories of my childhood in my blog. Just for the fun of it. I will start tomorrow.

Today was a great day. I’ve been feeling joyful and content all day. I absolutely love my life and I love eating raw fruits and vegetables. They keep me purring happily.

John and I ended our short romantic relationship yesterday. We aren’t a good fit right now. We are still great friends and I’m super happy about that.

I did juicing and made dehydrated snacks this morning. I drank a 64oz. banana, strawberry, coconut water smoothie throughout the afternoon. I worked for George in the afternoon. I stayed late and helped his girlfriend Peggy prepare dinner. It was great fun.

When I was almost home from work, I lost power steering and the battery light when on. I prayes to make it home so I could figure out what was going on without being on the side of the highway in the dark. Right as I pulled up to the house, the radiator exploded. I popped the hood and looked around. Charlie looked with me and noticed the belt was loose. I got to looking and it had slipped off of one of the pulleys. Ah ha! I will try to fix it myself tomorrow. I’m pretty sure I can do it. I might miss the fruitluck though. I was amazed at how perfectly timed my truck broke down. It is an hour commute between my house and George’s, it could have broke down anywhere in between here and there. I feel so blessed to have made it home before it happened. I feel so blessed it’s not a major repair. I am grateful to be home, snuggled in bed and not stuck on the side of the highway.

I got a lot done before bed. I bagged up finished kale chips, rolled up partially dehydrated cinnamon rolls, washed all the dehydrator trays, ate a bowl of romaine lettuce with lemon tahini dressing, did an enema, took a cold shower, nursed Angel and wrote my blog. Now it’s time for mediation and sleep. I’m basking in gratitude tonight.

I appreciate my truck.

I appreciate guardian angels.

I appreciate perfect timing.

I appreciate my bed.

I appreciate bananas.

I appreciate the color green.

I appreciate friendships.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate warm Texas rain.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Gratefully yours,

Victoria

Climbing A Tree

Today’s Intentional Transformation: When we truly give we never feel used.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am taking another day off from blogging. I am still really tired from my trip home. I worked for George this afternoon. Angel was really excited to see him and right before we left to come home she had fun in the backyard climbing a tree. I swear that child is going to be an acrobat. She loves climbing and balancing and swinging.

Last night I was awake with Angel in the middle of the night. I was reading and she was playing next to me. I was watching her play and marveled at how gently and kindly she plays with her toys. She talks to them nicely and sets them up in neat rows. At one point she wrapped her baby in a blanket and read her stories. So so cute!! I am so blessed to have her in my life.

Today’s food: I’m happy to be back eating raw again. It makes a huge difference in my moods and health. I’m feeling vibrant again after my cooked dinners for a week experiment. Even being tired today, I still feel vibrant and my mind is clear. By the end of that week I felt so awful it hurt to move, it hurt to talk, it hurt to breath. It was also vegan restaurant food which is worse that homemade simple whole food cooked vegan meals. My vibration was low, low, low. I never settle for not feeling good for long. So the experiment is over, the results are in and I’m back eating raw. Breakfast: a bag of grapes. Lunch: 64oz. Banana, strawberry coconut water smoothie. Dinner: 1small Avocado.

Ok, so I guess I did a blog post after all…lol.

I appreciate trains.

I appreciate understanding.

I appreciate change.

I appreciate having a lovely home.

I appreciate Savana.

I appreciate George.

I appreciate John for his honesty.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate grapes.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Vibrantly yours,

Victoria

Walking the Frog

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be willing to be wrong.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am taking the day off today. I’m tired from traveling and it was a busy day. Angel and I did get a couple of walks in and she got a wooden pull along frog at the thrift store that she thinks is the best thing ever.

I appreciate John for his kindness.

I appreciate walks.

I appreciate coaching.

I appreciate reaching out.

I appreciate forgiveness.

I appreciate emotions.

I appreciate hot yoga.

I appreciate fresh lemon juice.

I appreciate the color orange.

I appreciate sunshine.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Sleepily yours,

Victoria

Last Day in Detroit

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Become detached to the outcome.

Dear Diary and Friends,

Our last day in Detroit was pretty relaxing. Angel and I slept in until 10am. Then I started a load of laundry before doing yoga. After yoga I did my 30 minutes of sitting in stillness and silence meditation but I only made it through 15 minutes before Angel was crawling all over me. So I decided 15 minutes was good enough. I switched the clothes to the dryer, then I packed all the clean clothes I still had. I didn’t wear any of the summer clothes I brought and I’m not sure why I brought them. Lol. Angel and I ate watermelon, cantaloupe and grapefruit. Then we read stories and played until the clothes in the dryer were dry. I packed all of those clothes. Then we went to the pool. It was a cold day out but it was sunny. So it was nice seeing the bright sunlight through all the windows while we swam.

John came over while we were in the pool. We sat in the sun next to the pool and soaked up some rays and talked. He brought me roses and it was heavenly sitting in the sun and smelling roses. Angel liked smelling the roses too. After a while we went back to the hotel room. We decided to go for a drive and walk around a place John knew. It was a beautiful walk around a pond with the fall colors and lovely houses. I thoroughly enjoyed myself other than having to pee really bad. When we got back to the car, John found a place for me to pee right away. Ahh..sweet release. Then we went and had vegan Indian food. By the time the meal was over, my body was done with my temporary experimentation with cooked restaurant vegan food. I felt sick and miserable.

When we got bad to the hotel room. I threw up and temporarily felt better. John went home, Angel and I went to bed. It was hard falling asleep I felt so achy and miserable. Then the itchies hit me. I did deep breathing and was grateful for the reminder that fresh fruits and veggies are what I thrive on. I practiced accepting being itchy and not feeling well and enjoying the contrast. Finally I fell asleep but it was a restless itchy sleep. I woke up 2 hours later at midnight from the itching. I read until I around 2am when I fell back asleep. I woke again at 4am and starting getting ready to go to the airport. Angel woke up at 4:30am and was cranky. I held her and got in 10 minutes of mediation before heading outside to meet my ride.

The ride to the airport was uneventful. The airport was busy and the lines were long but we got through them pretty fast and made it to our gate with plenty of time to spare. Once we were on the plane I was hoping Angel would fall asleep during the 3 hour flight. She was wide awake the whole time and fussy to boot. This tired momma was not enjoying herself with a fussy toddler, a horrible painful gassy stomache and the itchies. Finally I couldn’t take the misery anymore. I was able to get centered and be ok with what is. It would pass and life would go on. The rest of the plane ride I felt content and kept my focus on my breath. It seemed to calm Angel down some and she mellowed out.

When we got off the plane and retrieved our luggage, Charlie pulled up to pick us up within 5 minutes. It was nice to be back in Texas in my good old truck. I felt great again and decided to have a raw vegan treat. We went to a raw vegan restaurant called Green Seed and I enjoyed a raw burger and burrito. It was super yummy and digested well. On the drive home I stopped at got groceries at H-E-B an hour from home. I was happy to be back shopping at my favorite grocery store. Angel finally fell asleep on the drive from the grocery store to home. I can’t believe she had been awake since 4:30am. I ate some date coconut rolls and drank some fresh squeezed oj.

At home, Charlie helped me unload the truck. I ate some raw siting rolls, then I took a nap with Angel. I slept really hard. I woke up a couple of hours later feeling really refreshed. I talked to my roommate Nick awhile, made phone calls to my mom and friends and checked out the house and plants. Everything looked great. Charlie did a good job while I was gone. I took a cold shower and went to bed. I nursed Angel and she fell asleep right away. Yay! I wrote my blog and am going to sleep myself soon.

I appreciate John for a wonderful vacation.

I appreciate Charlie for taking good care of the house.

I appreciate warm sunny Texas.

I appreciate fresh squeezed oj.

I appreciate naps.

I appreciate my old reliable truck.

I appreciate friends and family.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Warmly yours,

Victoria

Enjoying Life

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be what you want to attract.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I woke up at 8am. I had room temperature tea with lemon juice and wrote my blog. Angel woke up and hit the rambutan. There was a big pile of them left over from yesterday and she ate them all. I will have to find rambutan when I get back to Texas and keep her stocked up on them. I did my morning yoga. I randomly picked a yoga routine on YouTube and this one was intense. Holy moly! I was whimpering on my yoga mat by the time it was over. Lol. Then I meditated for 30 minutes. I had a hard time shutting off my mind this time, even with deep breathing..breath in 8 counts, hold 8 counts, breath out 8 counts, hold 8 counts….I love love love slow deep breathing. When meditation was over I organized the hotel room and read stories to Angel until John arrived.

John took us to the toddler park and Angel mostly played on the swings. She wanted to try out every single swing. So many swings, so little time, lol. I drank Oj, pushed Angel on the swings and enjoyed John’s company. It was a windy day and I basked in the feel and sound of the wind. John took us on a walk around his neighborhood and to lake St. Clair. It is a really neat neighborhood. It reminds me of the north end in Boise. I think that walk has been my favorite part of my visit here so far. It was fun whistling as I walked along, looking at the beautiful houses and trees. I felt peaceful and content, totally in my element on foot. I love walking.

We got back to the car just as a cold front was coming in. I ate a few bananas and finished my oj. John drove around showing me places and things. Angel fell asleep. I myself was starting to feel really tired, like total exhaustion tired. I fell asleep on the drive to the hotel and that was enough to re vitalize me. I woke up feeling much better. Angel woke up and I was concerned that she had slept too long and wouldn’t sleep that night, but it is what it is.

In the hotel room Angel finished off the leftover durian from yesterday and took a bath. I ate some jackfruit and bananas. Then we all relaxed for a bit until we decided to go out for dinner. It was a nice drive to dinner. We had vegan sushi and Angel tried out miso soup which she liked. After dinner we came back to the hotel. John went home, Angel and I went to the pool. I had a fun conversation with an older couple about kids and grandkids. There was a little boy there with his mom. He generously shared his toys with Angel and was the most polite child I had ever seen. It was fun watching him and Angel pass toys back and forth, each of them saying thank you every time. It was super cute.

After swimming, I thought I would let Angel watch cartoons on tv while I read. The cartoons were horrible and mean, so that lasted about 5 minutes. She played and colored while I read until around 10pm. Then she went right to bed and we fell asleep.

I appreciate parks.

I appreciate walks.

I appreciate wind.

I appreciate trees.

I appreciate naps.

I appreciate fun conversations.

I appreciate John for treating us so wonderful.

I appreciate the color red.

I appreciate fall.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Peacefully yours,

Victoria

Getting Our Fruit On

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be Grace.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I woke up at 8am. It was a grey rainy day. I wrote my blog and set my daily intention. Then I woke Angel up and we went downstairs to eat at the hotels continental breakfast, except I brought our own food. Angel and I shared half a watermelon. The young man running the breakfast booth walked by at one point and said “that is the best idea I’ve ever seen. Instead of cutting up the watermelon and then putting it in a bowl, you just eat the watermelon out of its own bowl.” Hahaha…he gets it! “Exactly”, I told him. Angel and I finished our watermelon and went back to our hotel room. I was going to do yoga and then meditate but I got a case of melon belly. If you don’t know what that is, it happens when a whole lot of melon is eaten too quickly. It’s like a burpy heartburn feeling and usually passes within 10 minutes. So I decided to meditate first. This time during meditation I deeply focused on my breath. I would take a big breath in and hold it for 8 counts. Then I would fully breath out and hold it for 8 counts. I enjoyed slowing my breathing down to this pace and before I knew it the 30 minute timer went off. This is the first time I was able to keep my mind quiet almost the whole 30 minutes. Yay!

After meditation I did yoga. As soon as I finished yoga, John showed up..perfect timing. We decided to go on a durian hunt. I brought along 64oz. of fresh squeezed oj and drank it throughout the afternoon. We knew of a store that we were told had durian. John drove us in that direction and pulled up to a store that he thought might be it. It wasn’t the store we had been looking for but they had a picture of a durian on the front window. John went in to investigate and came back out cheering. Durian had been found!! Yes!! We bought 2 durian and looked around but didn’t see anything else that looked good. Next we drove to the market we were originally looking for and they had a lot of great exotic fruit but no durian. Good thing we stopped at the first place! At this store we bought rambutan, jackfruit and young coconuts. It is a lot of fun fruit hunting. Fruit is so colorful and vibrant.

We brought our fruit stash back to the hotel room. Angel fell asleep in the car. So we let her nap for a while and organized our fruit. I put the durian on top of the heater so they would thaw out. When Angel woke up and we feasted on jackfruit and rambutan. we went swimming in the pool. It was fun watching John and Angel play together. They played together a lot giving me some free time to swim laps and practice handstands.

After swimming we came back to our room. The durian was mostly thawed so we all shared most of that. John had only tasted durian once before and didn’t like it but this time he liked it. Yes!! Even though we were full from durian, went out to eat at a vegan restaurant. I wanted to stick with eating mostly raw and I did pretty good. It was high fat but a treat. I had amazing cashew cheese and a not so great big salad. I did try some vegan pizza and apple cobbler. They were really good. We all had a good time. Angel sat quietly and colored the whole time. She had a vegan grilled cheese sandwich but after a few bites she wasn’t really interested in it. She prefers her fruit.

Back at the hotel room. I took a long hot shower and nursed Angel. It didn’t look like she would be going to sleep anytime soon. John went home to go to bed early. I read while Angel played until she got tired enough to fall asleep.

I appreciate durian.

I appreciate John for being an awesome fruit hunter.

I appreciate swimming.

I appreciate back rubs.

I appreciate hotels.

I appreciate rainy days.

I appreciate the color blue.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Fruitfully yours,

Victoria

Playing in Detroit

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be grace.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I woke yesterday at 8am. I had slept really well. Angel and I went downstairs to the continental breakfast. I had a bowl of cut up oranges and grapefruit. We came back to our room, I did yoga and meditation. I got in 15 minutes of meditation before housekeeping came to clean. I read to Angel for a while. Then she played and I read to myself until John came to get us around 1:30pm.

We all went to an exotic fruit grocery store and then to the park. Angel fell asleep on the drive and slept in the wagon while we walked around the park. Finally we woke up and played at the park playground. John and I played too. It was a really cool playground and I got to let out my inner monkey for a while. Then we went to “The Village” near John’s house. That was great fun. We took Angel to another playground that was really neat. Then we walked around, sat and talked to people, bought more fruit and rode the trolley. Angel loved the trolley. She talked about it the whole drive back to the hotel. Lol. I had so much fun with John. He has a great sense of humor and cracks me up.

Back at the hotel we went swimming and sat in the hot tub. It was nice ending to a fun day. When we went back to our room, I tried getting Angel to sleep. She was having none of it. Finally after 2 hours she fell asleep. No more long late afternoon naps!! After Angel was asleep John and I talked and laughed until 1am. It felt good to laugh so much. After I fell asleep, I woke myself up in the middle of the night laughing in a dream I was having. Laughter is awesome.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate John being so entertaining and funny.

I appreciate honesty.

I appreciate watermelon.

I appreciate parks.

I appreciate walks.

I appreciate the color yellow.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Happily yours,

Victoria

Having Fun With John in Detroit

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be Stillness.

Dear Diary and Friends,

Yesterday was mostly a day of relaxing. I woke up at 8am. I had a bowl of sliced oranges and grapefruit at the hotels continental breakfast. Back in the room I did yoga and meditated in stillness and silence for 20 minutes. Then I organized the hotel room, putting all our clothes in drawers and making the beds.

John came the get us around noon. I was super hungry by then and wanting to get food. We left and John wanted to do something’s before going to the grocery store. I felt frustration start to rise up in me because I was so hungry. I’m not used to not having food immediately available to me and I realized how well I pamper myself at home, making sure I have everything I need to keep myself healthy. I felt happy about that realization of taking good care of myself. With my current situation of being hungry, I communicated to John that I was really hungry because I had not told him before we left. Then I reminded myself that I am stillness and would eat soon..at the perfect time.

Within the hour we were at the grocery store. I munched on raspberries and pecans with Angel while we shopped. We got an abundance of fruit bought by John and I was very grateful. We went back the hotel and I ate grapes on the drive. At the hotel, we relaxed and took a short nap, which was much needed. Then we all went swimming in the pool. That was a lot of fun. Angel had a blast and worked on swimming a little bit. I worked on handstands in the water. It really helps me find my balance and know how it feels. John had fun playing with Angel, he is really good with her which warms my heart and is very important to me.

After swimming we went and picked up John’s dad to get him something to eat. I was so impressed with how kind and thoughtful John is with his dad. I thoroughly enjoyed watching them interact together. They are both very kind and loving people and I felt honored to be in their lives.

After taking John’s dad back home we went out to an Ethiopian restaurant. I enjoyed the food but had a tummy ache after. I’m not used to eating cooked vegan food. Angel was super tired and being a little rascal during dinner. I finally couldn’t take it anymore and carried her around showing her all the fun Ethiopian decor the restaurant had.

On the drive back to the hotel, Angel fussed some but then fell asleep. Yay!! Her schedule is all messed up from traveling and all the new things to see and do. She got a great nights sleep though and woke up this morning back to her usual happy self. I slept good as well, 9 hours I think. Woohoo!

I appreciate John being in my life.

I appreciate swimming.

I appreciate grapes.

I appreciate snuggles.

I appreciate books.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate the color grey.

I appreciate abundance.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Peacefully yours,

Victoria

Heading to Detroit

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be love.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I was too tired last night to write my blog, so I am writing it this morning.

I woke up at 6:38am. I sat for 30 minutes and stillness and silence. It was Ok. I still want to do om’s during meditation to quiet my mind. I will keep practicing focusing on my breath and simply allowing my mind to quiet without needing to use distractions. After meditation I made herbal tea with lemon juice and drank 32oz. celery, cucumber, apple juice. I made Savana breakfast and took her to school. When I got back home I did yoga. Angel joined me in doing some of the yoga poses.

I did laundry and cleaned the house until it was time to leave for storytime. I walked to storytime pulling Angel in the wagon. I brought 59oz. fresh squeezed oj and drank it over the next 2 hours. At the library, preschool kids came to visit storytime so it was a full house. Angel was amazed at all the kids and thought that was great fun. After church we walked back home. On the way we stopped in at a few businesses and said hello to people. Angel fell asleep before we arrived home.

Back at home, I laid down and answered some emails. Then I took a short half hour nap. When I woke up I changed the oil in the truck. It went fast. I had it done within 10 minutes. Yay! I did some last minute packing and picked up Savana from school. Then Charlie loaded up my luggage in the truck and I drove to Houston with Angel Baby and Charlie. I listened to fun music on the drive. The drive was fun until we got close to Houston. Then traffic was intense until we got to the airport. Plus my truck was acting up and slightly cutting out when I would accelerate. I was hoping I didn’t break down and decided that wasn’t going to happen. I was glad when I arrived at the airport without incident.

Everything at the airport went smoothly. I walked around and ate some of my homemade cinnamon rolls. Before I knew it we were on the plane. Angel was restless on the flight but did pretty good for being 2. I was tired and was hoping to nap but Angel was having none of that. I was glad when the flight was over. We arrived in Detroit at 11:30pm. We got our luggage and John found us. It was so nice to see John. Yay! It was a 30 minute drive to the hotel and I was sure Angel would fall asleep but she didn’t. We got settled into our room and I ate 5 small oranges. Angel nursed and I thought she would nurse to sleep but she didn’t. She was wide awake and full of energy until at least 2am. Crazy!!! She finally zonked out. Whew! Fruit toddlers have too much energy! Lol. Needless to say, I did not get my evening meditation in but that’s ok. I will get back at it today.

It was a great day and I’m excited to be spending time with John for the next 5 days.

I appreciate John getting us a nice hotel room.

I appreciate snuggles.

I appreciate airplanes.

I appreciate Charlie taking care of things at home.

I appreciate my truck.

I appreciate oranges.

I appreciate sleep.

I appreciate Nick also helping out at home.

I appreciate friends.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Happily yours,

Victoria

Day 4 Of Sitting in Stillness and Silence

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be gratitude. 

Dear Diary and Friends,

I was able to get time alone to sit for 30 minutes in stillness and silence last night and this morning while Angel was sleeping. I’m still having trouble keeping my mind from wandering without doing om’s. I will get better at it. I will keep practicing. I’ve gotten a lot better at being able to sit in one position without needing to adjust or switch positions. It was luxurious being able to meditate without Angel climbing all over me. Having a toddler I enjoy the small amount of alone time I can get. Even though I love playing and spending time with her, it’s nice to get breaks and it’s really nice to be able to meditate alone.

One more day until I leave to see my boyfriend John in Detroit. I am super excited. We will be flying out of Houston at 8pm tomorrow night. Yay!!

I went to YMCA with George today went I got to work. Angel had a blast playing in the splash pool. I posted a video below. George is thinking it will be fun to go swimming more often with Angel. I agree!! I am very grateful to have a wonderful job working for George.

Today’s food: 16oz. herbal tea with lemon juice. 16oz. celery, cucumber, apple juice. 64oz. fresh squeezed oj with blended mango and strawberries. 64oz. banana strawberry watermelon juice smoothie. Handful of peanuts.

I appreciate John being in my life.

I appreciate swimming.

I appreciate cool morning walks.

I appreciate Pastor Pam.

I appreciate strawberries.

I appreciate fun conversations.

I appreciate myself.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Excellently yours,

Victoria