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Today’s Intentional Transformation: stay connected to the silence in between sound.
Dear Diary and Friends,
I picked up my new roommate at the airport this morning. Charlie will be helping me out in the greenhouse and I am looking forward to the help. Since Hyatt left, I’ve been doing the greenhouse on my own and I am able to only do so much without help. After picking Charlie up we went to the fruitluck. It was so much fun as always. There were a lot of new people and the conversations were real and deep and healing. I am so grateful for the fruitlucks every week. When it was over Charlie couldn’t stop talking about how amazing it felt for him to connect with like minded, healthy, vibrant people. He had never experienced that before. He came from a small community where he was the only vegan and he had been feeling alone and isolated. I remembered how when I first changed how I ate and went raw vegan, I also felt alone and isolated. I remember the first time I met other fruitarians at Doug Grahams Health and Fitness Week. I was amazing at how vibrant and loving all the people were and I knew I had found my tribe. After the week was over, I went back home and I longed to be with my tribe again. Every year for 4 years I would go to Health and Fitness Weel and then I started going to the Woodstock Fruit Festival. I would be so sad when they were over. Then I became determined and I found people who were like minded in Boise where I lived. I also randomly started visiting other fruitarians around the country. I found a way to stay connected to my tribe and have a good support system.
Now in Texas I have done the same, even though I am the only fruitarian in my little town. I started connected with other fruitarians in the Austin area and organizing the fruitlucks. Before long a community started and it is growing. It is truly a blessing to have a loving and supportive community. If you don’t have one, then find a way to create one, even if it is on line. It’s important to have a support system to encourage and help us live our truth.
Today’s Intentional Transformation: Don’t take myself or life so seriously. Be playful and laugh easily. I am laughter.
Dear Diary and Friends,
There has been a huge shift in me the past couple of weeks. I have let go of a whole bucket full of fears. I have firmly decided that I am going live my truth, live my dreams and follow my inner guidance system and that nothing is going to stop me. I am willing to fail. I am willing to be uncomfortable. When I get nervous butterflies in my stomach and start thinking I can’t do something that I know I want to do, I welcome the fears. I give them a seat by the fire and have a heart to heart talk with them. I let the fears know I understand that jumping off the cliff is scary and it’s easier to live a mediocre life. I let the fears know that I am going to live a sensational life regardless of being scared. I let the fears know that I have complete faith in my inner guidance system and it will never lead me astray. I let the fears know that I am willing to fail, over and over until I succeed.
While learning to do handstands, I fell many many many times and I still do. I failed over and over but I knew if I kept practicing and pictured it happening in my mind that it would happen. Some days my arms were too weak and I rested. Weak arms didn’t stop me from trying again the next day. Nothing was going to stop me from learning to do handstands. Now I can do them, barely, but I can do them! My goal is to be able to walk on my hands. I know without a doubt that I can do it and it will happen. Anything I decide upon, whether it be physical, spiritual, emotional, financial and mental, I can do it if I have faith it will happen and decide nothing is going to stop me. I have stopped limiting myself, I have stopped making excuses. I have become my own inspiration. I challenge you to inspire yourself and become your own inspiration. Decide that nothing is going to stop you from living your truth.
Today’s Intentional Transformation: Be passionate about living a life of peace, joy and acceptance.
Dear Diary and Friends,
There has been something weighing on my mind for the past couple of weeks. I have been going through the process of releasing my hold and choosing to let go of this situation that I was involved in. I’ve gotten great advice from some of my incredible friends. I’ve shed some or maybe a lot of tears and through it all, I have done a whole lot of healing. I knew that this situation happened and was there out in the open so I could see my fears connected it. Then I could face those fears and see the untruths in them. Once I prove to myself that a fear is an illusion, then..poof…it’s gone, and all fears are ultimately illusions.
So anyway, I have a friend staying at my house for a few days. When I got home from work tonight, I was tired and I started telling her with big tears coming down about the situation I’m struggling with. She just looked at me and said, “get over it”! I instantly felt mad. Like, what the heck? She is supposed to be coddleing me and comforting me! What kind of friend is this anyway?! I continue on talking thinking I might be able to squeeze a little bit of sympathy out of her. I said, “I’m mad at myself for making a bad choice”. She said, “well you are right about that, it was a bad choice and so what, get over it”! I suddenly stopped talking and her words sunk in. I started laughing and laughing. She was right! What in the world was I hanging onto this story for? It’s like Eckhart Tolle says, “just let go”. When he was asked how do I let go, Eckharts response was, “how do you let go of something in your hand? You drop it, you let it go”. I wasn’t able to fully understand that until now. It couldn’t be that simple, right?! Well, yes it can! So I laughed and laughed and my friend laughed with me. I have incredible friends!! The laughter felt amazing and I “got over it” and most importantly, I got over myself! I was able to easily let go when I saw the illusion. The illusion was that I was using the situation to be right. The truth was that I was making the situation was more important than my happiness. Yes!!! Sweet, sweet release.
Today’s Intentional Transformation: honor my intuition. When I receive am intuitive inspirational idea I will act on it immediately.
It has been a very fun and rewarding day. My creative juices are flowing and I’ve had many inspirational ideas throughout the day…and I have acted upon them or made a plan to act upon them within the next couple of days. When I am honoring the creative and intuitive side of myself I feel incredibly alive and focused. Yay!! I am grateful for having a brilliantly creative mind that has a never ending abundance of ideas on how to use my skills to help others. I started offering a 7 day transformational program and I am really excited about it, found here:
I went to a fruitluck today in Austin. There was a great turnout and as always I enjoyed talking with everyone and deepening connections…and of course I enjoyed eating an abundance of fruit with other fruit lovers.
Tonight I am having friends over for game night and we will play cards or a board game. It’s great fun and I’m looking forward to it.
Today’s Intentional Transformation: Don’t take myself so seriously. I am gratitude.
Dear Diary and Friends,
I woke up at 3am. I read for a while and tried going back to sleep. At 6am I got up, woke Angel up and drove to church to clean it. I had an abundance of time so I did a really awesome job. I moved all the furniture and cleaned behind it. When I finished I was proud of my work and in my mind I pictured everyone telling me what a great job I did when they arrived for church service.
I went back home. Ate a bunch of watermelon and took a half hour nap. It’s potluck Sunday so I grabbed the rest of the cut up watermelon and salad fixings. I walked back to church pulling Angel in the wagon. When I arrived, I went to put my potluck stuff in the refrigerator and another church member was standing with the fridge open wiping the inside of it with a paper towel. She turned and saw me standing there and said, “who is supposed to clean the fridge, its filthy”.
Oh boy! I was running on lack of sleep and I had just spent hours cleaning the church. Anger and defensiveness flared up BIG. Like flames shooting through the ceiling. I kept calm on the outside and sort of sassily said, “I’ve been cleaning since 6am, i guess I missed it”. Then it was time for church and the conversation was over. I sat in the pew steaming. Thinking ridiculous thoughts like..”I’m going to stop attending this church” and “how dare that lady talk to me like that”, on and on went my thoughts. On top of my raging mind, Angel was being restless and loud. So I decided I was getting out of there, screw thus church and these people. I left the chapel with Angel in tow. I went into the kitchen to retrieve my potluck stuff. I opened the fridge and saw that it was disgusting and did need to be cleaned. I decided to clean it and then leave. I took everything out and cleaned it up really nice, all the while allowing the anger to flow without trying to stop it. I also let the angry thoughts flow without trying to stop them or change them or even judge them. When I finished cleaning the fridge, it glowed! As I was putting everything back in I felt happy and content. Then I realized I was happy and content. Wait a minute! When did that happen? I didn’t even notice when I stopped being angry, it just left…it didn’t even say goodbye.
I decided to stay for the potluck after all and happily made up the salad and my favorite lemon tahini dressing. Church got out and everyone showed up for the potluck. The lady that had commented to me about the dirty fridge cheerfully said it looked wonderful and that she hadn’t been sure if I was even the one that was supposed to clean it but it needed to be cleaned. Then a light went off on n my head. She hadn’t been attacking me personally that morning. She had been simply asking a question. I am the one that attacked myself! I am the one that saw it as a comment against my character. I am the one that chose to get extremely butt hurt over nothing. I was the one letting my ego run the show. What a blessing to see that. I was so grateful. How awesome! I love personal growth.
So I enjoyed the potluck and had a delightful time eating delicious fruits and veggies.
Today’s Intentional Transformation: live passionately without limitations. I am limitless.
Dear Diary and Friends,
Today’s intention was inspired by a YouTube video I watched on Lisa Nichols. After watching the video I recieved incredible clarity on where I wanted to go with my crazybananalady business. I had so much fun letting my heart and intuition lead me. Every morning and every night I meditate and ask for intuitive guidance to live my truth. Today the guidance was so incredibly big I was bursting. I changed the message of my coaching business to health to transformational coach. That is exactly what I am. I completely transformed my life and if I can do it anyone can do it. My passion is to show other people how. Doing consultations is one of my favorite things to do and now I am stepping it up. Instead of being 2nd or 3rd or 4th on my list of things to focus on with my business, it is now number 1 and I am going to create a business. Just thinking about it gives me the giggles. I have no doubt in my mind that this is where I need to place my focus. It’s my heart, I’m incredibly passionate about it and I’m good at it. I went to college for 8 years to gain the skills to help others. I’m so grateful to have been using those skills and stepping it up to refine those skills into a thriving business. So..happy dance time!
Moving on, Angel and I went on another long walk today. This one was almost 2 hours long. We practiced stopping at intersections and looking for cars. I wore my new xero shoes for the 3rd day in a row. My legs had been feeling a little bit sore adjusting to so much barefoot walking and after today’s walk, my calves were really sore. So I listened to my legs and let them rest most of the afternoon and evening. I’m really grateful to have the xero shoes to strengthen my body in many ways. I was a little bit surprised at how weak my legs and feet actually were from wearing support shoes since I do go barefoot a lot. I like having a strong body that lives close to it’s natural state and I really feel walking barefoot not only strengthens my legs, knees and feet but also strengthens my back, hips, shoulders and neck…well basically my whole body..lol. Xero shoes allow me to walk as if I were barefoot with protection from sharp objects and stickers.
The rest of the day was spent doing transformational coaching, reading, napping, eating fruits and veggies and watching a movie with Angel. It was an incredible day and I am grateful.