Is it humble to strive for humility?

Woke up at 6:45 a.m. Feeling a little bit stuffed up, but much better than yesterday morning. Woke up Savana. Was trying to decide if I should bike to church or use my roommates car. I was still feeling chilled and having a hard time maintaining my body temperature. I decided that if I took the car it would not be the lazy decision, instead it would be pampering myself until I fully recover from my cold. So I took the car to work, with the heater blasting….ahh…so toasty warm! On the way I stopped at Flying M and got 56oz. of fresh squeezed oj, Savana got 14 oz. and a cinnamon roll.

My job today was to clean the Mennonite church and I had to get it done before church started at 9:30 a.m. I was able to get it cleaned with 5 minutes to spare. It was pretty messy today now that some of the leaves are starting to fall, there is a lot of tracking in leaf bits and pieces…so it goes.

I was thinking that after I cleaned I would just go home and go back to bed. Once people started showing up though, it was so good to see all my wonderful friends and I was feeling pretty good, so I stayed. Savana was not happy with my decision. She was tired and crabby and wanted to go back home. She got quite a little 11 year old attitude with me. So we had to step to the side and have a talk…basically it was me telling her to knock it off or there would be consequences. I wasn’t sure how well that talk went as she stomped off the Sunday school. I was feeling like I was sort of lost, being a mom is so hard sometimes. I want to do the right thing and make the right decisions, but I don’t know what those are half the time.

I shrugged it off and went back out to socialize. Everyone was asking me about my play and how they were going to try to go see it. It is so wonderful to me to be involved with a church that supports me being in “The Rocky Horror Show”…and most of them have seen it! I love that about the Boise Mennonites. That is one reason why I even go there. Not one person there has ever asked me what I believe, religious wise. They figure it’s no ones business but my own. I don’t even believe in “God” in any conventional religious belief. No one cares…they let me lead the worship service once every other month, they have me on the worship committee. The sermons are not about saving others or what religion is the right religion, who’s sinning and who’s not. They are about being a better person, self healing and growth and that is what I am about. I want to become the best person I can be in my lifetime.

During adult morning class we talked about humility. It was a great discussion. A good point was brought up about laughter and humility going together…with the idea of being able to laugh at ourselves. Also we talked about if you even strive for that being humble? Good question! I loved the topic and we gave examples of people we knew that practiced humility. Great stuff.

After church service there was a new young couple there…yay…I could get in my introductions in right away. There names were Ryan and Katie. Katie works for the sierra club. Right on! Perfect fit for the church. We are a group of environmentalists for sure. You should see the bike rack every Sunday, it is packed full. I get almost giddy just looking at all those bikes.

After church we went to the co-op. Savana was back to being her happy self…whew! I let Savana get some herbal hair dye, she wanted to die her hair black for Halloween. I bought some dates and persimmons and some food for Savana. I was trying to decide if I wanted to stay downtown and go to an Occupy Boise gathering at 2, or if I should go home and get some rest. The idea of getting rest won out. As much as I wanted to go to the gathering and I knew a lot of my friends would be there, I wanted to take care and love myself back into perfect health again even more.

I came home and wrote my blog for yesterday. I ate a one of the durians I had bought the day before. It was not a very good one. Then Savana watched a movie on the laptop while I took a nap. I didn’t realized how extremely tired I was. I fell asleep instantly and it was a hard deep sleep. My dreams were fun…I was floating around following energies. Beautiful, wonderful feelings in my dreams. I woke up to my phone ringing which was good. I had slept longer than I thought I would and it was time for me to get up and get ready to go to dinner. I ran a hot bath and soaked in the tub for a while, getting warm, I was still feeling really chilled.

The Mennonite church has a fun event where get groups of people together to have dinner and get to know more about each other…it is called “supper for several”. It was my groups night to meet. I made up a bunch of banana, peach smoothie and bottled it up to take. I was running late and didn’t have time to bike, plus I was still feeling run down, so I took Steve’s car.

I made it to dinner and one of the ladies had brought a salad. She had told me earlier at church she was not going to put anything in it that was not a  fruit or vegetable so that I could eat it. It is so great how very accommodating everyone is at these dinners. They are always happy to make sure they include me in their food preparations. Since I knew about the salad ahead of time I had brought ingredients for my raw tahini lemon dressing and I made it up real quick making sure I made enough that everyone else could try it as well.

Dinner conversation was great. I shared a little about the fruit festival and about keeping in contact with other fruitarians from around the world. Others talked about great things they were doing, interesting things about their work, trips they had gone on recently and how they spent their days while working. Such good energy and wonderful, encouraging people to be around. I was happy to be among my people 🙂  I had some of my smoothie and then salad with my dressing, I also had some plain brown rice that had nothing on it. I did get a very slight headache after eating the rice, but not terribly bad. It was all good.

After dinner, Savana and I came home and settled down for the night. Neither of us have to get up in the morning. Yay! I have the day off tomorrow and I am going to just take it easy. I want to be back to 100% by Tuesday so I can get back on my bike and hit the ground running 🙂




Published byCrazybananalady

I am a transformational coach. I help people find the truth inside of themselves to live a peaceful and content life.

1 Comment

  • Dean

    October 12, 2011 at 9:40 am Reply

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