Dear Diary and Friends,
I’m so confused right now. All these new ideas on truly being in the now and meditation. Then giving up my beliefs…all my beliefs. I feel like I’m nothing and I was ok with that yesterday but today I want to be something. My ego is freaking out. I want a break from life but I know I will follow. I want a break from myself. I want a break from being or not being. I want a break from Angel Baby and I love Angel Baby but the 2 year old whining is screeching on my nerves. Then I know it’s not her, it’s me allowing it to be an issue…then I started screeching on my last nerve with my thoughts constantly yammering about what I am and am not allowing. Please just stop!!
Ok, so that about sums up where I am at. I’ve gone 3 days without the sun. That is rare in Texas, that’s why I love it here. The sun will help.
I appreciate sleeping Angel Baby.
I appreciate cold cloudy days.
I appreciate apples and mulberries.
I appreciate days off.
I appreciate my thoughts yammering all the time.
I appreciate warm heaters.
I appreciate meditation.
I appreciate breath.
Thank you for being a part of my life.
I appreciate you!