I Want a Break and Some Sunshine

I Want a Break and Some Sunshine

Dear Diary and Friends,

I’m so confused right now. All these new ideas on truly being in the now and meditation. Then giving up my beliefs…all my beliefs. I feel like I’m nothing and I was ok with that yesterday but today I want to be something. My ego is freaking out. I want a break from life but I know I will follow. I want a break from myself. I want a break from being or not being. I want a break from Angel Baby and I love Angel Baby but the 2 year old whining is screeching on my nerves. Then I know it’s not her, it’s me allowing it to be an issue…then I started screeching on my last nerve with my thoughts constantly yammering about what I am and am not allowing. Please just stop!!

Ok, so that about sums up where I am at. I’ve gone 3 days without the sun. That is rare in Texas, that’s why I love it here. The sun will help.

I appreciate sleeping Angel Baby.

I appreciate cold cloudy days.

I appreciate apples and mulberries.

I appreciate days off.

I appreciate my thoughts yammering all the time.

I appreciate warm heaters.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate breath.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Grumpily yours,

Victoria

2 Comments

  • Carolyn loubiere

    November 11, 2017 at 7:43 pm Reply

    This too shall pass! It’s ok!

    • Crazybananalady

      November 11, 2017 at 8:14 pm Reply

      Yes! I love it! I almost wrote that exact line in my blog.

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