Goodbye Beloved Greenhouse

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Time has no anxieties or worries. Time is perfectly calm and only happens now. Live peacefully in the moment.

Dear Diary and Friends,

This morning I decided to give up having the greenhouse. I had been thinking about giving it up for a while and this morning the thought felt so light and freeing that I went ahead and made a final decision. I called the owners and told them, they understood and were fine with it. Now I’m going to start pulling the trees out and planting them in my yard. I am very excited about being able to focus on making my yard a tropical paradise.

I explain more in the video below. I am too tired to write it all out tonight, I have been up since 4:30am and my mind is falling asleep. Lol

I appreciate the greenhouse.

I appreciate clarity.

I appreciate meeting new people.

I appreciate early bedtime.

I appreciate bananas.

I appreciate the color pink.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Sleepily yours,

Victoria

Forgiveness

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Illusions do not battle with truth. They only battle with themselves. I choose truth. I am peace.

Dear Diary and Friends,

Forgiveness is important because it is about ourselves and never about the other person. It’s about the energy we choose to have inside of us. When we choose to carry anger, bitterness or resentment inside of ourselves then we are not able to be the love that is who we are. We are in a state if resisting love. Resisting love is really quite silly if you think about it because it causes suffering within oursejves. Does it make sense choose to continue to suffer because of an act committed by another suffering person? It doesn’t really add up but choosing to forgive and end the suffering inside ourselves makes a lot of sense. Choosing not to forgive doesn’t hurt the other person, it only hurts ourselves. Love yourself, have peace and harmony within yourself and thrive.

Today was my day off. I read to myself, read to Angel, took a long nap and had a wonderful meditation time.

Breakfast, lunch and dinner was cooked lentils with cabbage. Once in a great while I eat cooked food but then I’m always reminded of how much lighter and vibrant I feel eating raw and that eating fresh is my truth. I like reminders! I’m looking forward to getting back to my beloved fresh fruit and veggies tomorrow.

I appreciate the color red.

I appreciate pomegranate blooms on my tree.

I appreciate cabbage.

I appreciate naps.

I appreciate help with the greenhouse.

I appreciate Savana watching Angel.

I appreciate music club.

I appreciate forgiveness.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Delightfully yours,

Victoria

Fear of Failure

Today’s Intentional Transformation: perceive all things with love, appreciation and open-mindedness.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I learn a lot from Angel baby. She has absolutely no fear of failure. I watch her practice learning how to do things, she fails time and time again but continues to practice until she succeeds. Then she yells…”I did it, I did it”.  I’ve started doing that myself, every time I succeeded at doing a handstand, I yell, “I did it, I did it”. Every time I choose to eat food that my inner voice tells me is going to allow me to thrive, I yell, “I did it, I did it”. Every time I choose to take time to meditate every morning, I say, “I did it, I did it”. I’ve learned that celebrating my successes, even the small things makes me want to keep succeeding. The only way I ever even succeed in the first place is because I am willing to fail. I keep practicing, I keep trying, I keep telling myself I can do it. I don’t get down on myself for making mistakes. I don’t get down on myself for not following my inner voice all the time. I simply keep trying and whatever we practice we get better at. I accept that I am imperfectly perfect and life is a journey. I will fail and I’m ok with that because I wouldn’t succeed without it.

Today’s food: breakfast: 8 banana/strawberry/coconut water smoothie.

Lunch: 4 banana nice cream.

Dinner: a handful of pecans that gave me a tummy ache so I didn’t eat my usual salad.

I appreciate failure.

I appreciate success.

I appreciate morning, afternoon and evening walks.

I appreciate bananas.

I appreciate breath.

I appreciate whistling.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Successfully yours,

Victoria

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Facing The Fear of Rejection

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Health is the result of relinquishing all attempts to use the body lovelessly. I am love.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I’ve been enjoying facing my fears lately. It is invigorating! Today I focused on facing my fear of rejection. As I thought about the fear of rejection, I could clearly see how silly it is. There is no way to expect to never be rejected for anything or by anyone. Not every person is going to like us all of the time or want us in their lives all of the time. To expect to never be rejected is setting ourselves up for needless suffering. When we are fully living our truth and have confidence in ourselves then rejection does not stop up from following our inner guidance. Rejection just means that the person or situation is not meant to be the door for us at that time. It means we are meant to go a different road or have access to different people. Rejection is a tool for clarity. It is never personal. It’s about what the other person or people are allowing into their life experience. Anytime you are rejected in anyway, simply accept that person or position or whatever is not meant to be at that moment. Continue on, following your truth and going through doors that do open up. Those are the ones meant for you.

Today was fruitluck day. I woke up at 4:30 and then went back to sleep at 7am. I woke again at 8:30am and rushed around getting ready to go to the fruitluck, trying to not be late. It was exhausting and even though we were going to be late, I took 5 minutes to be alone and meditate before leaving.

On the drive there, I had my friend and roommate Charlie drive, we listened to “Change your Thoughts, Change your Life”, by Wayne Dyer. I didn’t feel very well. I felt nauseous and tired. When we got to the fruitluck, I went to the bathroom and had a big poop. All of a sudden I felt better. Yay! The fruitluck was amazing as always. I had great conversations, ate lots of fruit and enjoyed swimming.

Then I went to work for George. I thoroughly cleaned the floors while I was there and drank a 64oz. banana/strawberry/coconut water smoothie. After work, Charlie drove us home and we listened to fun music. At home I ate a smallish salad with one head of red leaf lettuce, cherry tomatoes, a few pecans and lemon tahini dressing. Airbnb guests arrived. I got them settled in and went to bed.

I was a beautiful day!

I appreciate swimming.

I appreciate fruitlucks.

I appreciate persimmons.

I appreciate poop.

I appreciate meditation.

I appreciate connections.

I appreciate rejection.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Gratefully yours,

Victoria

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Be Confident Because You Are Imperfect

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Today’s Intentional Transformation: when I judge others I lose myself. I am love and have no need to protect myself with judgement.

Dear Diary and Friends,

There has been a big shift in me. For the first time in my life I feel fully confident in myself and I trust myself. I saw how I had been using my past as an excuse to not live my truth fully. I had been feeding the fears of having an imperfect past and allowing that to stop me from embracing my greatness. Then an awareness of that shifted me and I dropped the fears. I firmly decided that nothing is going to stop me from following my intuition. I will allow my creative flow of ideas to be put into action fearlessly, even if this means stepping out of my comfort zone, which I have been doing. I am willing to stand on the edge and jump knowing without a doubt that I will catch myself. It’s envigirating to live like this. I feel so alive and inspirational.

Today’s meals: breakfast 16oz. fresh squeezed oj and one sugar kiss melon.

Lunch: 64oz. banana/strawberry/coconut water smoothie. Drank slowly for 3 hours.

Dinner. A head of romaine lettuce. 1/4 head of green cabbage. A small package of mushrooms. 2 handfuls of cherry tomatoes. 2 tablespoons of lemon tahini dressing. Io

I appreciate salad.

I appreciate a long nap.

I appreciate Charlie.

I appreciate a big order for cinnamon rolls.

I appreciate grocery stores.

I appreciate time with Savana.

I appreciate singing.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Confidently yours,

Victoria

September 14, 2017: Living My Truth

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Today’s Intentional Transformation: Have faith in myself. I have all the answers inside of me.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I am feeling back to my inspirational self today. I knew that cutting out caffeinated kombucha was going to take my health up to another level. My inner voice told me it would. I also knew that resting during the detox faze and trusting my body to heal in its own time was my truth. So I did just that. When I was going through the detox I didn’t have the creative inspiring thoughts that I usually have. My mind was in rest mode and not creative mode. I found myself attempting to feed depressing thoughts at times, such as, “I’m never going to get better” or “I’m not strong enough to make it through this”, but I knew those thoughts were lies and not my truth so I gave them no power. Then this morning I woke up feeling my inner purr going full force. My creative mind was giving me all kinds of fun thoughts and my body had the energy to put those thoughts into action. Yes! Yes! Yes!

After taking Savana to school, eating a breakfast of 2 sugar kiss melons and biking with Angel Baby to a well child appointment, (where she was pronounced to be in astounding good health), I headed to the swimming hole with Angel Baby and my new roommate Charlie. The water was high from hurricane Harvey and it was absolutely delightful to swim in. It was cold and fresh and felt invigorating. We skipped rocks, meditated and had splashing fun. I practiced hand stands underwater to feel my balance point easier. Beautiful, colorful dragon flies were all around and sometimes would land on one of us and say hello. We played for a couple of hours before heading home.

Back at home, Angel napped and I made kale chips, zucchini chips and I tried out a new recipe for dehydrated cookies. I will find out tomorrow how they turned out. So exciting! It smelled so good with all the yummy snacks in the dehydrators. I juiced a bunch of oranges and got 64oz. of juice. Yay! I cleaned up the kitchen, then I sat down and made some phone calls while I drank a 9 banana, strawberry, coconut water smoothie. Angel Baby woke up and ate some raw oats with raisins. Then she played outside in the backyard with the cats for a while and I made a couple more phone calls.

My friend Bebe came home and my other roommates all came out into the kitchen and we all had a really fun time talking and laughing. I just love to laugh, it feels so good! Better than sex! Lol. I made 4 banana, 4 strawberry nice cream for dinner and ate it while we all chatted and goofed off until it was bedtime. Then I took a cold shower with Angel Baby…yes she loves cold showers too..lol. We went to bed and Angel nursed but didn’t go to sleep and I wrote my blog.

It was a delightful day.

I appreciate rivers.

I appreciate friends.

I appreciate hand stands.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate poop.

I appreciate bicycles.

I appreciate dragon flies.

I appreciate the color purple.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Joyfully yours,

Victoria

September 13, 2017: Completing a challenge!

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Appreciate all aspects of my journey.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I woke up at 4am and wrote the last day for my 7 day transformation program. It took me 2 hours and I was so relieved to have completed writing out the program. I kept doubting myself and having to go inside to the place that knows what I am capable of and deciding from that place that nothing was going to stop be from writing a dynamic program and completing it. So it’s done!! Yes!!! When I finished, I celebrated by doing a hand stand. Woo hoo! You go girl!

I went into the kitchen and did my morning meditation, reading out loud and I am’s. Then I packed Savana’s lunch and make the girls breakfast. Savana reminded me that tonight she wanted me to go to her parent teacher conferences. I drove Savana to school and came home. I ate 2 sugar kiss melons for breakfast, talked to my friend Corrine on the phone and hung laundry on the line. I started some bananas for cinnamon rolls in the dehydrator and made kale chips to put in there too. Then I read and took a short morning nap. Angel played around me and watched the “Bee Movie”. I got up and made a banana, strawberry, coconut water smoothie for lunch. I drank some of it, took down the laundry, folded it and put it away. Then I read some more and napped again.

I got up right on time to go to work. On the drive to George’s, Angel slept and I listened to Wayne Dyer, “Change your thoughts, Change your life”.  We arrived right on time. I cleaned some, drank the rest of my smoothie and ran an errand. Angel stayed with George and he has been working with her on coloring. She has just started colored in the lines and is doing an amazing job at it for a 2 year old. Angel was also given a beautiful dress that was homemade for her by George’s neighbor Alfrosa.

I left work an hour early so I could go to Savana’s parent teacher conference. On the drive home Angel and I listened to fun music. We arrived at the school right on time. The parent teacher conferences were fun and all the teachers raved about Savana.

When we left the school and I asked Savana and her boyfriend Tyler to stop at the store and buy me lettuce so I wouldn’t have to do it and bring Angel into the store. They said they would. I got home and fed Angel her favorite, raw oats with raisins and I made cookies for Savana’s lunches. Savana and Tyler get there and they had bought me cabbage, accidentally. I really wanted a salad with lettuce but decided to be happy with what I had and I ate a bunch of cabbage with tahini lemon dressing. My friend Bebe who is staying with me for a while arrived and brought me lettuce but I was full from the cabbage and too tired to make a salad. I remembered I hadn’t finished her cinnamon rolls I had started earlier. I made up a date and cinnamon paste and rolled up the banana halves with the paste inside of them and put them back in the dehydrator. Then I took a quick cold shower and went to bed.

It was a wonderful day!

I appreciate friends.

I appreciate overcoming challenges.

I appreciate love.

I appreciate cabbage.

I appreciate change.

I appreciate gifts.

I appreciate naps.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Faithfully yours,

Victoria

September 11, 2017

Today’s Intentional Transformation: I can achieve anything I believe I can achieve. It’s all about what I choose to believe.

Dear Diary and Friends,

Today is another rest day.

I appreciate playing cards with friends.

I appreciate great conversations.

I appreciate laughter.

I appreciate rest.

I appreciate help.

I appreciate the sun.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Sleepily yours,

Victoria

September 10, 2017

Today’s Intentional Transformation: Act upon my intuition with confidence.

Dear Friends and Diary,

Today is a day of rest.

I appreciate inspiration

I appreciate good books.

I appreciate help with the greenhouse.

I appreciate bananas.

I appreciate coaching.

I appreciate confidence.

I appreciate health.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Womderfully yours,

Victoria

September 9, 2017 Fruitluck and a New Roommate

Today’s Intentional Transformation: stay connected to the silence in between sound.

Dear Diary and Friends,

I picked up my new roommate at the airport this morning. Charlie will be helping me out in the greenhouse and I am looking forward to the help. Since Hyatt left, I’ve been doing the greenhouse on my own and I am able to only do so much without help. After picking Charlie up we went to the fruitluck. It was so much fun as always. There were a lot of new people and the conversations were real and deep and healing. I am so grateful for the fruitlucks every week. When it was over Charlie couldn’t stop talking about how amazing it felt for him to connect with like minded, healthy, vibrant people. He had never experienced that before. He came from a small community where he was the only vegan and he had been feeling alone and isolated. I remembered how when I first changed how I ate and went raw vegan, I also felt alone and isolated. I remember the first time I met other fruitarians at Doug Grahams Health and Fitness Week. I was amazing at how vibrant and loving all the people were and I knew I had found my tribe. After the week was over, I went back home and I longed to be with my tribe again. Every year for 4 years I would go to Health and Fitness Weel and then I started going to the Woodstock Fruit Festival. I would be so sad when they were over. Then I became determined and I found people who were like minded in Boise where I lived. I also randomly started visiting other fruitarians around the country. I found a way to stay connected to my tribe and have a good support system.

Now in Texas I have done the same, even though I am the only fruitarian in my little town. I started connected with other fruitarians in the Austin area and organizing the fruitlucks. Before long a community started and it is growing. It is truly a blessing to have a loving and supportive community. If you don’t have one, then find a way to create one, even if it is on line. It’s important to have a support system to encourage and help us live our truth.

I appreciate fruitlucks.

I appreciate Charlie.

I appreciate sugar kiss melons.

I appreciate delightful weather.

I appreciate the color yellow.

I appreciate fun conversations.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

I appreciate you!

Happily yours,

Victoria