Dear Diary and Friends,

Hopelessness and despair have overwhelmed me for 3 days. The anger inside of me is huge. It seems as if everything is meaningless. Everything I’ve strived for is pointless really. Being positive and compassionate and peaceful…taking care of my body, eating healthy….it’s all meaningless. We all die, we all enter the greater consciousness after death. What is the point of growth and awakening? I’m tired and I just want to be, even if it means that I feel angry and bitter and fat and unhealthy, just let me be.

Thank you for anger.

Thank you for despair.

Thank you for writing.

With despair,



Daily Gratitudes

Thank you for lavender.

Thank you for Emil.

Thank you for belief.

Thank you for rain.

Thank you for challenges.

Thank you for temptations.

Thank you for wisdom.

Dear God, What can I give you today? “Appreciation”.

I will delightfully live in appreciation of all things.

I radiate light.

I radiate love.

I flow like a large river, resisting nothing, still yet moving, following my path easily.

For all who read this blog and are a part of my life, thank you!

With humility,


See The Truth In People

That which we consider sickness is not sickness. It is exactly as it has to be because of the laws of nature. Do not see the sickness in a person, instead see the Holy Spirit in them. It is the same Holy Spirit that we all have. Our truth. See what is right with them. Speak to their truth. Listen to their truth. That is loving. Don’t try to fix them in anyway because it causes you to see what you think is wrong with them It causes you so see that which you think needs fixing. When you see their truth and they are aware that you see their truth. That gives them awareness that their truth is real and they will align with it in a new way and their consciousness will make a shift.

Thank you for light.

Thank you for meditation.

Thank you for A Course in Miracles.

*What can I give you today?* Your fears

I gave you my fears and I have become light once again. Thank you for the contrast. Thank you for the darkness.

I appreciate all of you

With gratitude,


Raw Vegan Hummus

Tools: food processor with an S blade.


1 cup of raw sprouted chickpeas (soak raw chickpeas in water for 2 to 4 days. Changing the water twice a day until you see them sprout little tails)

3 tablespoons raw tahini.

1 teaspoons fresh lemon juice.

1/2 clove garlic.

1 tablespoon cumin.

1/4 cup of water.

Put all the ingredients in the food processor and blend until creamy. Enjoy!

Raw Vegan Gazpacho

Tools: food processor with s blade, sharp knife, large spoon and cutting board.

Ingredients: you can use organic or non organic, your choice.

5 medium tomatoes

2 zucchini

2 cucumber

4 stalks of celery

2 cups of corn

3 altaulfo mangos

2 avocado’s (Optional)

Directions: slice 3 tomatoes into 4ths. Put in the food processor and pulse until chunky. Put into a large bowl. Do the same thing with the zucchini, then the cucumber and finally the celery. Putting them all into the large bowl with the diced tomatoes.

Peel and dice the mangos and avocado. Add them to the large bowl. Add the corn.

Take the remaining 2 tomatoes and blend in food processor until they are a creamy liquid. Poor the blended tomatoes over the other fruits and vegetables in the large bowl. Using a large spoon mix everything in the bowl together. Enjoy!

The Miracle of Living Honestly

Dear Diary and Friends,

As treasurer of the church I attend, I like to keep the church well stocked on necessary items. A couple of weeks ago I bought a package of really nice pens for the church, with permission, using the church money. As I was putting them away I thought to myself how nice it would be to have one of those pens. I instantly felt the weight of darkness upon me. Mentally I had put myself in a place of feeling lack and fear, feeling like I couldn’t afford to buy a nice pen for myself and thinking I could just take one little pen from the church and no one would care.

Hold up cowgirl! I immediately stopped my mind and put the brakes that whole ridiculous thought process. Seriously was I so poor that I couldn’t buy myself a nice pen and needed to steal one from God? I laughed to myself, “of course I had more than enough to buy a nice pen and NO I did not need to steal one now or ever”. The weight left me and I was light once again. Ahhh, that’s better.

I asked Pastor Pam if I could borrow one of the nice new church pens until I made it to the store to buy one for myself. Pam said, “of course!” So I borrowed the pen and was very conscious about returning it. A few days later I was on a walk with Angel. I happened to randomly look down and there on the road next to my foot was a beautiful black pen. A very fancy one with a light at one end. I picked it up and it was in perfect condition. I laughed with joy and yelled thank you, thank you, thank you! I love it! What a wonderful gift. I wasn’t expecting that! Wow, wow, wow!!

Thank you for light.

Thank you for a fantastic pen.

Thank you for guidance.

Thank you for blades of grass.

Thank you for security.

Thank you for faith.

Thank you for drops of dew.

Thank you for crisp morning air.

I appreciate y’all being a part of my life.

Thank you!

with gratitude,


What I Angel and I Ate, Adventures with Favor

I welcome today!

Thank you for a warm delicious breeze. Thank you for dates. Thank you for new experiences. Thank you for friends. Thank you for my body. Thank you for breath. Thank you for birds to wake me every morning.

*What can I give you today? Fascination

I will delightfully be fascinated in all things today.

I glow like the sun, welcoming and warm.

I am a bubbling brook singing songs of joy, going where I am meant to go and resisting nothing.

Breakfast: Angel: 1 young coconut meat. 32 oz. banana, strawberry, spinach smoothie. Myself: 1 young coconut water, 32oz. lemon water, 32oz. banana strawberry spinach smoothie.

Lunch: each of us had 32oz. banana strawberry spinach smoothie.

Snack: each of us had a bunch of dates.

Dinner: Angel: plain uncooked oatmeal with water. Myself: 1/2 cantaloupe, 1/4 pineapple.

Snack: myself: bunch of dates.

Yesterday I woke at 6:30am. I got up, made my bed, put coconut/lavender oil on and got dressed. I got Angel dressed and put clothes I had washed last night in the dryer. I cut open a coconut drank the water and gave the meat to Angel. I made 2 64oz. banana strawberry smoothies and put them in the fridge. I made Savana her lunch and took her to school. When I arrived back home I drank 32oz. of lemon water while I wrote gratitudes in my journal. Angel had some smoothie and played with her toys. I drank some smoothie while I vacuumed the house, folded laundry and put it away.

At 10am I drove to my friends house and gave her a professional massage. Angel watched finding Dory and ate some dates. After the massage I drove to Austin to meet a friend who was watching Angel for me while I went to an orientation to drive for Favor. I listened to Jim Rohn on the hour drive. Angel slept. When I arrived downtown it took a bit to find parking and I started to stress about time. I immediately felt the resistance and assured myself that everything would work out perfectly. I found metered parking near the museum I was meeting my friend at. When I went to put change in the meter I realized I didn’t have enough change. A lady was walking by and I asked her if she had any change for $1.00. She was very friendly and gave me the change she had which was just short of $1.00 and she refused to take my $1.00. I graciously thanked her. The coins gave me just enough time to do what I wanted to do. I woke Angel up and put her in the stroller. We met my friend at the museum and talked briefly then I left Angel with her and walked a few blocks to the orientation.


The orientation was informative and fun. I was excited to start running favors. When it was over, I messaged my friend and walked back to the museum. She wasn’t outside with Angel, so I waited a bit. I saw she hadn’t gotten my message and I realized she probably couldn’t get service inside the museum. I knew my meter had run out for my parking and I started to stress that but told myself it would all be ok. I asked the lady at the front desk if I could go in without paying to find my friend with my daughter so I could go to work. She let me! I found them right away. I thanked my friend and gave her some of my raw homemade cinnamon rolls. We said our goodbyes and I headed to the car. The meter had run out but there was no ticket. Yay! I loaded Angel up and drove to work for George and Peggy in Round Rock. I drank smoothies on the drive and I arrived 15 minutes early 😊.

Work was great. I ran errands while Angel played with George and Peggy. After work I decided to try out Favor now that I had completed the orientation. I worked from 6pm to 9:30pm and did 8 deliveries. It was a lot of fun. It was warm out and I enjoyed driving around with the windows down. I kept taking long deep breaths of the amazing air, it felt so good and I was grateful. Angel slept through most of my favor runs. I wanted to keep going but it was late for me and I still had an hour drive home. On the drive home I listened to fun music and snacked on dates. I appreciated being out of traffic and back in my familiar territory.

When I arrived home. I talked with my Airbnb guest who had arrived early that day, my daughter Savana had greeted him and got him settled in. He is a biologist working in the area for a few days. I got to bed around 11pm. I thought I would go right to sleep but I still had excitement flowing through me from the new job. I enjoyed the excited feeling and basked in it until I fell asleep.

Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my life.